gone, you're gone

Gosh ! Today is the last day of 2009 and tomorrow is gonna be 2010. It's a whole new chapter :) :)


IT'S NEXT MONDAY!!! ARGH! School going to re-open, SOON! How's my plan? Dunno. I'm so NOT looking forward my form 5 life.. SPM.. How stressful? Plus my life was tie up with studies.




WTH,why am I talking about 2010? Yes, come back alright?


& something hit on my mind right now,which is new year countdown ! YAY.. It's TONIGHT. Seriously, I wouldn't want it to turn out like Christmas Eve. I was sooooooo disappointed that my day turned out like that, which it was suppose to be merry but ended up cried like a mad.







I feel so boring. =.=





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2009

So the main topic about this post is 2009. The oh-not-fit-to-carry-guts-to-a-bear-year. Why? It's a year I hated sooooooo much due to some facts. I couldn't breathing with the amount of stress I had & the endless problems which I had faced throughout the year. omgwthbbq

Family.

I don't have any problems with my family. Something unbelievable is, my brother is totally different compare to the previous years. Why? Maybe he's train with those bad egg. *curses*
And, my dad had persuade him to change his mind again and again. But, its make no difference. Seriously, I had a great daddy :D :D



Friends.

Friends are hard to find, friends can come and go.

Seriously, I had a few time of friendship problem this year. Idk why, indeed my life's bitter and thorny in '09.

Ask me how does the feeling of having a true friend. Honestly, I cannot answer your question. Cause I don't have a true friend throughout my 16 years living on earth :( :(



Studies.

I was so stress out that I was cried everyday, every night in every test. WTH! I put a lot of effort in my studies but then i couldn't scored a better mark. I might not be the best for now. But yet, you're not suppose to look down on me.

Because nobody can judge my life other than myself. So, you better shut your big mouth.



Love.

Hahahaha ! Well, it's totally like a dream. I don't feel any unrest/uncomfortable because he gave whatever i asked for/i feel the need for. *thumb up*

I don't know if it was lost or forlorn; anyway, it's gone.

Okay,let's keep this private.



Guitar ?

There's no need to say. I love guitar. But, my hands had become rough and roughen. OMG !
Yeahp, I passed my test already. But, not happy wif the result le.



Run.

Ahhhh... I've lost my spirit since months ago. Guess what?! I'm going to stop joining all the acitivity related to run. Maybe?!

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This year was the worse year for me.

I went for a lot of camp and ninety-nine times out of a hundred i came back like a log. hahahaha !

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In June, I went for Kem Integrasi.

I enjoyed the company with a big gang of friends wif all the differ uniform body. Yupp, I leave the place wif happy memories. I know same to the others girl guide too. It would definitely be so much better without the scolding by the seniors but we wont be so discipline without their hard work too. Thank you.

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In August, I went for Kem Kepemimpinan Kokurikulum.

I came back with sunburn on my face. T__T

Fishing was cool with bamboo although I didn't catch any fish hahahaha ! And, not to forget walking in the mud at night too. Yup, I fell into the slurry. YUCKs !!

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Yeahp, Girl Guide won the Johan Pertandingan Kawad Kaki award and kawad berirama, too. The most memorable event of the year. Hari Kokurikulum !


I had such a great and wonderful team to work together. Although we wasted more time than practice and argued with somebody with something useless. Shitty fella !!

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OOOHHHH... This year I had a chance to take part in Kawad Berirama for twice.


On 13 November 2009, we had performed when Pn.Joginder's retirement. She's finally retired. Bye bye Pn.JO.

Due to drizzled rains in the earlier morning. We had to shorten the performance. WTH ! It takes up a lot of our lessons to practise, and then you come and ask us to shorten it immediately. And, things changed to at sixes and sevens. Then, they'll ask us why it's so terrible. Ahhh.. my tears totally paid off. I swear I'm NOT doing it again by the way !!!

I had a tan on my face and sunburn on my neck for N times !!! Ignore my weird face.

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During November, I went for 1 M'sia camp at Kedah.

Ahhhhhhhh... I will never forget the stupid kes kecurian forever. *curses the fella*

Make new friends.. Like May Kuan, Wei Ling, Abbie etc..


In December, I went for 2 camp, too.. If you read my previous post then you would know..

( I'm seriously lazy to retaip everything again. )


LOL.



Let's see, what the pictures are going to tell us.

Picture in Jan. During CNY.. Hee

The pre-bday celebration.

Anyway,
today's 30..
And tomorrow's 31..
School re-open real soon..
Wtfreak.
SPM's coming vy soon, too..

Notes: please PAUSE the time !!!









Off for bath now.. Going to refresh myself for party tonight.




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Better off for bed

The happiness is not given to you, but created by you.

How true? LOL.

Sometime, am hoping for my parents will turn up the thumbs for their daughter.. Am trying to send things will make good winning and just 12 heard a word from them. E.g. "Good job, sweetheart." As a matter of fact, what you wish will NEVER come true.. So dont put high hope.. xP


Have you ever wondering why i was working hell-for-leather?? Alright, let it all hang out.


I'm doing everything NOT for myself, seriously.. (who else? dhk yourself)


I am queenlike/haggish/superhuman? Honest speaking,most likely a puppet/faintheart.. Dont ask for the reason. And, i'm not going to pipe my eye tonight. My tears are seriously priceless huh?! LOL.


Anyway, my tears totally paid off in 2009. So,am telling ownself to stop tearing lahhhhh. Am not a good daughter who never achieve my parents goal and spending money like water.. WTfreak.


p/s: Bud, i need your ear now.. Heard me?


It's hard to be a good daughter, honestly.

Let bygones be bygones !!!!!!!!

Oh yea,
Someone invited me to his party.. but the sadness part was he didn't invite ____________.. How come? LOL.


Omg. Am still hoping for new year eve countdown now. Sigh.




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Aihx..

Notes: I went for haircut today. I love my hair a lotttt dy. But it's kinda short now weyy!!!!

YAY~

I am emo now =( =(

New year countdown is not as easy as what I've thought.

Gosh!!!

Why av1 keep reject me?! WTH.

I just 12 gather all my frens and countdown sama-sama.. But why?

Stupid.

Luckily Au Yong suggested me to go countdown wif him and his bro.. Hopefully.

Aiyaaa..Am expecting for Royal Selangor countdown now :D still got time lahhhh.. Chill chill =D

Dun break the promise kay? *finger cross*

Please! Cheer me up with the plan on.. hehee

Okay, Im soooo great that ive a kawan baik like you, anyways. You cheer me up whenever i was soooooo upset! Thx bud :D

Annnnd, I enjoyed the ice ytd.. I was vy fulled till wanna vomit le.

Notes: Thx Leong and Au Yong for the payment, too. hee!

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i feel so undone recently..
too much to do but dunno what to start.

OHH YAAA! Prefect meeting on next saturday =( =(


Grrrrrrr.. going to taip the documents later.. *taiping*






Ciao~

Wee

A hug is just a hug..


A love is a love..


A kiss is just a kiss..
but until you found the one you loved.
it's totally differ.



I heart her.. more than a word.


xoxoxoxo


Hmmm.. What's missing?? LOL.

p/s: Having a great time wif coussy today! And, she brought us a lot of choc.. Sweet weyy. *draws heart*

Christmas Eve

Alas !

It was a vy prosy day i tell you.. Was waiting for time to pass rapidly. Kesian me! hahahaha

Today when halfway tuition..

Then, I think aloud in class.

Paiseh paiseh..


I was looking at the clock:" Hey, why the time was so slow today de?

Au Yong:" EH.. why? you got date later meh?

*heehaw*

Nola..But i vy sien le..

You go ask s'one to teman you la..

*simper*

Nobody want to date me le.. And, you better shut up, dun talked bout sensitive issue.. Anyway, you 12 go dpc tonight ma? Please!

Dunno o.. see tonight how la..

okay!



Then, we continue tuition again.. how cool? lol.

So how's my plan today?


Wondering??

*drumroll*

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So,

Avatar @ Mv

Having a good time wif sista and Jian Hong

Enjoyed the 3D vision

Notes: First time for 3D.. Shud b a day to remember right?lol


And, dinner @ Little Taiwan

Hmmm.. not bad thru

Quite expensive lah.. But who cares? Nice ma! lol.

Back around 11 sumthing..

And, dpc had cancelled.

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Christmas eve is here and it's coming be MERRY..
Be HAPPY
HAVE A WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS & A FABULUOS NEW YEAR
2010!

p/s: Please ! Date me date me.. Im not gonna to stay at home tml as it's CHRISTMAS !

Gosh!! The clock point at 4.35am. now.. Gotta ciaozz!! Night.

The Secret

On the first day make me 12 go home soooooooo much.. T_T

I get up on the wrong side of the bed.. Gosh !

Langsung beh tahan the environment wif all the scout members.. ( The PURPLE man )

And, out of 5 or 6 school.. We are the ONLY girl guides.. ( We are the ONLY GREEN man.. or no i meant green gals )


Aihx.. I was getting speechless!!

And, I started not to talk to anyone because I really dun 12 spoil their mood..

( I used to talk to my phone wif Chew Jian Hong aka mr. lolipop.. hahahaha )



8.00pm.

WHOOP !!

It's the time I feel the most silly, unbacked and helpless !!!!
Av1 will put the blame on you when something goes wrong. WTH
I HATE to be a HEADER..
But, thanks God ! We still managed to complete our modern cooking competition. Hurrah !!
( Specially, thanks Dyi Uei who appeased my uptightness and poorly )


Notes: I found out both of my legs occurred some blue black spot..


The next day i wake up in the superrrrr earlier morning.. Get myself ready for the marching competition..

GROAN !!

Blankety-blank !!

I felt soooooooo nervous and trembling with fear.. I can feel that my body was shaking.. Plus my legs be in pain.. ): ):

During scout olympic, my body muscles were getting vy painful.. It's suffering me!! So, I jst standing in a side..

Notes to her: If you 12 join them, go ahead lah.. why must you calling me and talk something bad about me? Damned.


So, mana-mana pun Mentos time.. hahahahah!

Having a short chit-chatted wif Jian Hong when he's free.. And, i hate the kb-ians gals who asking me a lot.. I dun care who are you.. whether you're a Kelana or wad.. you've no right to asking me a lot.. Be honest, Im not in a mood to answering you those bullshit question! So you better shut up.


Campfire was not bad thru..
But, quite sien lah.. The songs keep repeating for sooooooo many times. LOL

Notes for him: You shut up ! Don't not judge me if you dont know anything, you just don't have the right !


And, I'm glad that we won "THE BEST DISCIPLINE" award.. * whoop-de-do *

Tepuk-tepukan PANDU PUTERI.. Whoopee !!!

( Pictures will be update soon.. And, will let the pictures do the talking for the upcoming post )



P/s: According to the chinese calender, today's 'dong zhi' where people starting to eat 'tang yuan'.. So, the readers must be busy eating glutinous balls outside there !! hahahaha. Enjoy, anyways !

I'm back

GRUNT~

Finally, i'm back !!!

But, not in a mood to blogging now.. Will update together wif the photos soon..

xoxoxoxo

It's soooooo easy

I started my day off early today. Woke up at 7 something. Slept like after 1am.
I forced by Li Yeng to go out marching, such a BLAH.
But, when I reached school, I had been informed that nobody was free today ! WTH



And, guess what? 4 of the blockhead were having fun in Maluri playground. LOL.
Since we have to wait for another 3 hours to go on, we shall have lotsa fun over there. Hahahaha


I met up with kindergarener from Tadika Impian Kita. Obviously, they’re so cuteeee ! Feels to pinch their cheek le. :D :D

I managed to know some kids & take some photo with them, too..

Jealousness betul !!!

They’re sooooo naive.. Yet, they’re lacking worldliness and sophistication now. Yes, you may say they’re artless, simple and natural. Alas ! I was wondering how about my childhood. hahahaha

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Yesterday ! :D

Went for an outing. Met up with him at ktm station at 10.30am. Whoa ! Incogitable people over there. Was planned to meet each other in the last carriage but ended up with a laughable ending. So, what we do were communication transmitted by words, means message lah.

" If someone fart, then i die terus..."

A cold joke which described the scene on that day. wahaha.

Obviously, I found out that I was too short. Erhem, I’m not that sad anymore, but I’ll still continue to erm, try to grow taller. LOL

We had lunch at LITTLE VIETNAM.

I ordered a set of vegetarian fried rice, which tasted like crap. Ahaha ! but whatever lah.

And, I started to throw stones at him when I couldn’t finish the food :P :P

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Finally, managed to finish everything within 1 hour.. but 45 mins. Wakaka


WOOT, went to family amusement park. Having photo hunt :) :)


Then, we shop around to look for something.. XDDDDD

Watched The Storm Warriors @ 1.30pm. Kinda lame ass show which sucked.. LOOOL


Note: Thank you! Your outer wear made me kinda warm.. *draws heart*

P/s: Anything/Whatever/Up to you/You like lah..??.. hahahaha !!!

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Groan ! Skipped tuition today.. Stomachache really killing me now ! ! !

P/S: Gosh ! Guitar examination tml.. Trembling with fear !!!

Anything ?

林万庆 ！！ LOL

Wondering what does it means right? hahahaha!


Will update more when I'm free, anyway .. Mayb tonight or others day ba.

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p/s : Going to have steamboat wif friends tonight. ^^


And, just came back from Midvalley few minutes ago !


Vy excited yet tired.. hahahaha !


A big thank you for him who spending a lot wif me today ! *draws heart*



Ops.. Credit for myself who manage to wake up earlier today,too ! hahahaha..





Notes for myself : Blogging at mei sin's house now while waiting for the rest to come. hahahaha



Credits for av1 of you who is reading this now, too ! Because it's too senseless.. LOL

bid farewell

i wake up still feeling terrible about last night..
i found out that camp is a series of distress and headache for me!
it's not that i wasn't care nothing about camping but i really piss off with what had happening lately.
i ready to give up in disgust
& no longer suffer from bitter pill...


And yea,

BUDDISM CAMP
given me a headache!! WTH
i suppose to present at my grandpa's 3 years fete-day but i might not go on the ritual bacause of this camp. Sad! I am aware that my mum may give me a break for my reasonable excuse but i take thought for her, she might come into the picture and get those nonsense from all my auntie on that day! omgwthbbq

"THE SECRET" 4th CAMPING CAMPFIRE"

was another nightmare for me!! The organizing committee change their program list ever and agah. Previously is from 19th Dec - 22 Dec. And now, they had changed it to 19th Dec - 20th Dec which ONLY 2 days! The modern cooking had switched to 19th Dec, 8.30pm - 11.30pm, how preternatural ! lol

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Currently stayed up until 3 in the morning to chat through phone call.
& rise with the sun which practically slept for several hours only, how cool. lol


Nothing much to update on actually. Went to school as usual for marching practice and have a good time to enjoy riding a bike today. (A big thank you for Yi Jie and Vei Hung for lending me their bicycle)..

First time went to Cybercafe to borrow W.C. (which express toilet) ! Same goes to Kar Yan. She went with me, too.

OMG, i swear i wun make this happen again, how embarrass!



Leave for camping tomorrow..



p/s :
Bid adieu to my readers ! lol

7.12.09

Today it is 7th December 2009. It was Chew Jian Hong's big day,my primary school friend's birthday.

First of all.. Happy Birthday to you !

I know it's a bit too late to actually blog about your birthday.

Nevertheless, i know it was your best birthday. They made your day out! Your beloved family, friends especially *you-know-who-lar* hahahaha.
Too bad, the surprise turns out not to be a surprise in the end.
Maybe you're too smart ba. lol
I hope you love the cakes that i gave to you ! My vy first time brought cakes for others birthday le, so you know how good i treated you lar haha.


Well, hope you enjoy everything especially today ! lol

Hmmm... We are kawan baik since standard 6 and we always helped each and others for carry out the duties.

*draws heart*


Sometime, i used to bully you as i m your head, how cruel.. haa !


I remember one day a girl, im so not gonna mention about her name here. She was be dead against me. Beh tahan her lor ! And, until i switched my duty place & I found out that dutying is so fun.. without her,how great.. haa !

Okay, im so not gonna spoil the mood here :)

Hope you will find your lifetime fere one day anyways.. xDDDDDD

♥ dad

I argued wif my dad yesterday.

bcos of my tuition fees cost RM300/month.

He asked me to do part time.

T__T

okla fine.

But..

Ive no extra time in hldys.

& me?

I'll never try to seek the blame from.

I won't offered an explanation to justify or obtain forgiveness from my dad.

*inner me feel so sad*

I wish i've grown up & im the one who working outside.It's reli hard to take care of a big family in today's world. Everything talk about $ ! WTH

& i realized my daddy looks so tired recently. Looks older than before. Sometimes, We got financial prob. Yet,he's the one who sayang me banyak-banyak. He gave whatever/anything i asked for. But, when i got quarrel with him, i will think not to talk to him

May God bless him ♥