爱情与友情，傻傻分不清楚

celebrated the tai kor's b'day (dyi uei) at carecafe tdy.
30.6.09
brought him a green tea favourite cake which is not from secret recipe :P
YAY.. He was craving for secret recipe i know hahahaha.
it's fun anyways. xD

so,
I saw this from somewhere, some place. lols

“爱情和友情不能并存吗？”

Of course, you have the right to judge your life.
If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
And, what other people think of you is none of your business.
Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

(shi wei)

p/S: you can come and talk to me if you have something to say/share. My ears will always lend to you. LOL
So, consider you're fine if you don't come and find me, kay? *finger cross*

Hapi b'day TAN DYI UEI :D

it's hard to forget this day la.
stayed back as usual today ..

plan to take part in treasure hunt but yinming ffk-ed.
(i dun blame her cause she was sick.)

so, i asked chern hoong to help. But, you-know-what-happen-lar . T T
(i dun blame him cause he got mural mar.)

I've no choice so terpaksa to go mural wif them ..
Helpless me!! Whom do nothing at there. Yet, i do not give a helping hand too.

Then, i went library to find Chini-chini (Miss Chin). Have a short chit-chatting.

Ngam-ngam Cik Aqilah was there and thank you for making my day so busy.
And now, i can go focus on the PIDATO COMPETITION oredddi hahahaha.

i walked home alone.
So yeah, En Tan saw me and he was smiling at me. Am i look funny on that time?! lols

All the way, i felt so bad and my tears were rolling inside my eyepit ..
"I cannot cry." i told myself.
But, i saw a couple of blindman, my tears sudah bek tahan and keep dropping down. T T

WHY?!

The pain on my leg was keep 'knocking my nerves' .. T T
Yet, i was still continue. Can you feel the pain?
And, i was the only person along the way back home.

The day was here,
the sun was bright.
But,
my heart was frail,
my side was nobody,
my mind was blank.
Can anyone tell me why.. why??

I understand what's your feeling that time,
At first I admit really wanta chop you into pieces,
but when I think rasionally,
I know that love is fulled of jealousy ..
And one thing i know, love is blind.
so I can feel that u love her so much !
I salute u :D


sorry to hurt you,
I cant be friend with you d,
don't find me,
She needs you more !


because of this I cried so many times,
I feel sorry to made lotsa people to misunderstand me.
If you're their friend and believe what they had told u ,
then go ahead..
treat me as bad ppl, nevermind ~
I cant force anyone to believe me as well.

i really wanna tell u everything,
I'm hurt now!I
i dun trust anyone from now onwards.
T T


p/s: Don't talk to me. And, will update bout camp integrasi soon. XD

I am back !

Oh hello people. I am back.

Got back all of my mid-year papers' results. So-so ba. Could have done better but my account marks had improved twice compared to my first test =D

But,
math?!
40 marks nia .. COOL not?!!
The so-called-stupid-subject :P



andddddddd



i don't like bm, seriously. Even i had improved but still baddddd lar.. why huh?!


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Apa dah jadi?! Benda yang sama berlaku sekali hari ini .. T T

*nonsense*

i always try to tak nak mention about 'her' infront of you, but why i still repeat the same things everyday?
aihx.. penat betulnya !
i sudah fed up pun .. xD
*slap my face*
piak .. piak ..

Anyway, i believe in susut nilai hahahaha .. As the price will go down time by time, isn't it? *insane*


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Ahhhhh ..
malu betul pun !
people (s) dah cross the road but i was still at the side .
Yet, you still laughed at me!
*face turned red lar*
:D


Next camp gambungan would be falls on 26th June 2009, this Friday. By then, i should have to get ready with the drama things first =D

小手拉大手

我不知道我該不該捉住他的手.....

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那一刻，我竟然 .....

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我是一個走路就放空的人，尤其是刚放学啊，剛擠完KTM下車等之類的。
所以，要把我拐走，除了体重上的困难之外，是没有什么问题的。（那么重，以后晕倒了也不能被帅哥公主抱，拐到脚帅哥也背不起。泪奔～）
于是乎，走在路上就是潜意识的迈开脚步，往家里的方向一直走就对了。


我一个人过马路还ok，反正过不到就过不到咯，一直等着，一定会没有车的时候的。
一大群人过也ok的，反正就是一大群人一起过不到，嘻嘻哈哈还可以一边聊天。

过小马路，我是很不要命的过很快的 :P 因为不觉得危险。

但是大马路就不同啊！！

大马路那么多车，你被一辆撞飞后，后面又接着一辆，又撞飞，再一辆，再撞飞。
一直这样飞飞飞，到你落地的时候，大概都到1公里之外了 = =

于是乎，最怕就是两个人一起过大马路。
为什么呢？
因为我怕，一个人过了，我还留在那里，超级迷茫，然后一直又过不去，最‘鱼’就是还要那个人过回来带我过，那就‘鱼’死啦！

P/s: Articles taken from somewhere.

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今天去GEMILANG买颜色纸。
他就陪我去，然后我们一起走回家。但是我不知道我不知道他要走哪里，所以我就跟着他走。
要过一条马路的，他站在前面，我站在后面，我又怕他过了，我又还没有过。
有些人大概是很想如烟，一下就冲过去，我不知道他想怎样。

那一刻，我很想拉住他的手一起过，但是我又不敢 >< 他‘名草有主’啦，突然拉人家的手，吓死人家咩。 我又想拉住他的衣服，但是我还是不敢 >< 于是乎，我挪一挪，站靠近他一点，那样起码他过我就可以跟着他嘛。 后来是很顺利的过了啦 hahahaha .. xD p/s：如果下次只有我们两个人一起过大马路，你可以牵我的手，我不会slap你的 :P

bad luck :(

The-so-called-bad-luck-day.

1. No pair for treasure hunt, so i give up lar. T T
2. ffk-ed pn tan cause my mood going down. i hope she don't mind. Maafkan saya okey?
3. T-shirt' design was losing. *weepy*
4. Syarat barpidato tak buat lagi. Nak hantar esok lagi!

And *drum rolls*
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Finally, tears were rolling down non stop TT


Then, presentation make me mad AGAIN.

NO PAIR AGAIN!! Face prob?! YAY .. i should go for face-lifting nia.
LOLS

anyway, i hate those whom dunno anything about it then come and talk alots. wtfbbq

PLEASE DON't COMMENT ANYTHING !

call me failure!

To: Eathie

YAY YAY
you should call me as a FAILURE!

Sick of everything, unsatisfied, discontented, exhausted ..

I don't think I can stand this anymore.

why i couldn't talk in a proper way? idunno. *sobs*

WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO DO?!!!

"Sorry" is just not enough.

And no hugs can cure this nearly crushed heart of mine and yours..

But, you said " planned to comfort me .. "

These words...

I'll treasure them banyak-banyak, seriously.

thank you.

Your truly,
venus

scream out loud !

met someone @ times square.
but, you-know-what-happpen?!
they were leaving me alone and gone.
and, the worst thing was a uncle was keep looking at me in the train ..
*evil looking*
Ohh, i'm wondering if a gal is looking at him too?! He might go near huh??
*Requesting for the truth.*
LOLS

So, today was another outing day ..
was planning to watch "17 Again" at 1.45pm.
but, first thing is to buy our tickets ..
a long queue although we reached half an hour before the movie starts.
and, we terpaksa to choose 3.45pm ler. T T
bitter ending huh?!

then, having lunch time at Old Town ^^
Honest speaking, the franch toast was a disqualification for all of us.
Maybe those uncles and auties love it?! *No idea*
But, Chee Kent and Sook May beh tahan, so they just ate little nia.
*evil laugh*

well, was planning to play roller coaster but failed ..
cause they said its may take few hours .. xP

so, continued with walking around again before our movie at 3.45pm.

LOL

It's a fabulous movie, but i didn't watch the ending .. curse D=


Going back around 6 but was crowded with lots of ppl ..
Hrmm .. off duty season mar !
so, v terpaksa squashed into LOL ..
And, im seriously pitied both of the OKU (orang kurang upaya) .. I saw they're trying very hard to squash into the train but those human(s) are too selfish including myself right? curse me ): ):
They don't even give them a place .. TT
Why huh?!
*feels like slapping my face hard !!
i promise no next time kay?

aihx ..
The uncle keeps touching my butt le but the train soooo sempit.
No choice lor ! T T
Yet, i was so lucky .. ^^
The earthie jadi HERO .. And, he saw my face then he laughed hahahaha.
so, he pulled me side-by-side .. o.O


He's a sweet guy, did i told you?!
and fyi, he's so caring ^^
Ops .. call him earth or hero better huh?! *laugh*


well,
i don't blame you for leaving me alone, honestly.
"if there's a next time?"
i don't mind, seriously.
but,
if she's you-know-who-lar then you better watch ..
cause i knew she don't like it.


p/S: I hate smoker .. ewwww
i don't like the smell !! So, please keep away from me as a warning.

yeahuuuu muack
because
ACCOUNT is going to be my another bf :P
i love it more and MOREEEE .. o.O
Hmm .. *laugh*

so, today i was spending for 3 hrs at mcD for doing a little bit revision.
And, i met lotsa of malurians.. *sweating*

p/S: For those who are going to start chapter 7, please give your patient as a warning.


Duh !
Times Square or not le?!
i dun want to be the 'bulb' if there's nobody going.
Don't blame me kay?
Since some of them are having keahlian test tml, so i knew they will ffk .. T T

i hate this .. Ewwww

Anyway, I'm heading to baking cheese cake now.. wakakaka

All the best for those who are going to have their keahlian test tml anyways. ^^

Notes :
For the stupid fella who keep saying "i love you" ..
Please go away!! i hate you.
why got such people simply say these 3 words when they're boring?
*laugh at my ass*
It's digusting, right ?
囧囧囧囧囧囧囧

Honest speaking, i hateee him lots!!!!

and he's LAI KAH CHUN ..

A small change?!

There was a period of times i was stopped drawing and editing stuff, i seriously felt soooo badly to hold the pensel again (i don't mean in study lar) cause its reminds me of u-know-what-happen-lar. so i don't want to try!!
But, can you see? I made a history today.
I didn't gave much thought about it. But i knew i have to finish it since i did promised him yesterday.

So, here's the prove.. o.O

The first trial.
Ops.. not bad right?




The second trial.
hmmm .. *laugh*




The third trial.
I'm kinda love this one.. ^^




Finally.
nice nice LOL
Hahahaha.

And, i addicted to editing pics again LOL

first time in everything

Okay, as i was saying, there is always a first time in everything.
Same goes for me:

• First time i admire a boy was when i was 13. It's too young?! No comment.

• First time i face a terrible failure was when i was 15. Ops.. PMR!!! My nightmare. XP

• First time i couple was when i was 15. It's sweet?! No idea.

• First time i cook was when i was 9, not joke. :P

• First time i cried in front of scouts and guides was when i was 15. It's sport day. T T

• First time i hug a boy was when i was 15. And, he's super tall :X

• First time i actually study was when i was 15. And, he's the one who had made things changed.

• First time i got a best pet brother was when i was 15. And yes, he's always a dummy brother.

• First time i felt so sweet when i was 16. Hmmm.. *laugh*

• First time i enjoyed to study calculation was when i was 16. And yea, it's ADD MATHS and ACCOUNT.

• First time talked hornies was when i was 15. Ehhh.. i'm not the one who start the topics, kay?

• First time i went for a camp at the midnight was when i was 15. And, it was a raining day.. coldddd nia...

• First time i had a best zimui was when i was 15. And, she's Emily Liew. yes you!

• First time i told a guy about my everything was when i was 16. Ops. he's a good listener, honestly.

• First time i really heart a guy was when i was 15. And, it's on 29th Aug. *bear in mind.

• First time i slap a guy's face was when i was 16?! it's accidentally, kay? And, i know he'll make retaliate.
  

• First time i put hand-on-hand with a guy was when i was 16. well, not holding hands, kay?

• First time i did lotsa of hard works for the club was when i was 16. KELAB SETIA, you shud pay-me-back. LOLS

• First time i went over a guy's house alone was when i was 16. it's on 12 April 2009. Don't get me wrong anyways. XD
  

• First time i hugged by a malay was when i was 16. And, it's on teacher day, my acc teacher!!!

• First time i sing k was when i was 16. Sound too late le?! And, i want to try boiling!!!

• First time i drop a brick was when i was 16. it's at REDAND ISLAND. Malu betul pun...

• First time i cut short hair was when i was 7?! Forced, kay? And, someone said i look like donald duck! *laugh at my ass.

• First time i seriously planned for a b'day celebration was when i was 16. And, im wondering what will they repay back. *keep an eye on.

And, first time i was soooo fiddlededee (lame) was today. And yea, I was blogging for nonsense here! :P

i was abnormal?!

today: 9 June 2009
went mei sin's place and planned to buy some clothes but plan CANCELLED. T T

waited for 2 hours without doing anything then gonna ready for Suguz's lesson jor. He miss me lots mar! LOLS

and, it was raining so what to do? run lar!
Then, makan tillll very full and both of us were like wanta vomiting. Hahahaha.


Anyway, they said i was super abnormal without choon sheing in class tdy, isn't it?
i dunno why, honestly.
u guys decide larr. =D

Lastly, a pic for the day. And, she finished everything on the table :P

hols outing

o.O? Holidays outing :P
And yea, mid valley with friends today.

Met up 'Chicken', Cheong Wai, Au Yong, Soomi, Huiji, 'Earth' and Hon Lam <3
lols.

v sang k @ red box
and we really tried out each type of song.
Hmmm.. chinese, contenese, english and even malay nia. hahahaha
it's my very 1st time le. XD
not bad lorr. =D
I knew some of them are going to become deaf jorrr.
sorry niaaaa... maafkan saya okeyy?
really sorry . bukan sengaja punya T T

anyway, some funnie things happened before v going back.
auyong and cheong wai planned a game which i call it stupid-NESS. =X
both of them wanted me to hid away from the big gangs esp you-know-who-lar and see whether he do feels wrong or not.
so, i tried lar. finally, you-know-what-happen-lar. T T
and, i knew he'll know, mayb one day?!

NO COMMENT!! (but, i'm winning cause he do not bother mar.)

thanks my buddies for lighten up my monday anyways!

when the guys and the gals met, they would have their topics?!

H1N1? LOLS

venus @ earth

you-know-lar =X

look there?!

ops. come back here! (no idea what am i doing there) LOLS

Notes: MONSTER VS ALLIEN (3D vision), here i'm coming.

=D


nxt outing coming soon.
but no mood le,seriously. curse D:
let me think ^^

i love beach

Sawadika!
I'm back from Redang.

And, those days I realise I was starting to fall for him.
I felt scared.
How could i risk falling again? *slap my face hard-hard

anyway, thank you soomi and kuishi for telling me a lot of craps. *laughing like siao
They had accompany me for the days and night and listened to me.
i love you guys banyak-banyak.
btw, please keep the secrets kay?

thank you