生命中 那一页

& I was cleaning up my harddisk. I browse through many great memories, especially photos from Universal Studio Singapore (风景、人物、记忆任然是美好的！） 

So, today marked the date of so-called-friendzone-date.
Now, when things flashed back, I smile a little. Because he make me grow up so much all these times when we are both together and even after the breakup. :DD

我们做朋友好吗？对不起，深爱过不可能再从情人变成朋友，别傻了！

Where it had been a year and time flies. 
And I decided to come up with this random post LOL.

Today, I was an independent little girl. Where, I loveeee myself more.
I pampered myself with things I want.

& the greatest things I gave myself was "forgive" (rather than I'd said I brought myself an iphone 6s plus rofl)

I never know, I can be so forgiveness. Till one day, he facebook message me. He told me stuff that someone could just pissed off. He brought up all the things and asking me not to look for his family and blah blah blah.. 

So, basically he just want to draw a parallel line between me, him and the family. 

Now when I did the flash back, one thing I was kinda regret was when I asked too much when breakup. That was the BIGGEST MISTAKES I did.

But anyways, he taught me a lot of things.

The top 3 things that I've learned from him:

• Families love!

This is pretttyyy good things I've learned from him all these years. & it was one of the reason why I choose to be with him. It was in Singapore & it was still a clear picture of our first date like it just happened last night? Hahahaha. The first time after work, he send me home (when we were still friend). He called his mom and told her about he wants to make proposal to a girl and things etc.. (I swear I never know that girl was me, no clue was given as it was my first week working in Singapore) He loves to tell his family EVERYTHINGS! He never hide a thing behind from his family. He shared joys, foods, laughs and every single things in life with them. He was bad temper, but he respect them.
I'm really thankful as in part of Hong's family. They gave me chances to learn. The parents are the greatest assets I gained.
They taught me to be patient. (Do things slowly as I was an impetuous person)
They taught me to be love. (Cause I never a dog lover or pet lover. But this lovely family influenced me to love doggies. One thing I cannot deny that the dog can read oneself's mind. The doggies came to my room when I was studying one day and pat me on my feet then silently lying beside me. How can you resist their cuteness? Awwww.. :O
I was never a good daughter or a good sister. I used to ignore things they've told me and always think that they're annoying. But I slowly become patiently and love them more day by day. (& I'm still a learner, as I know family love is gonna be a long learning process  until the day we die.) I wish, I can be someone they proud of we what I do.

• Trust your partner !

He did a pretty good job on trusting his partner. He never have doubt with me with whatever things I do. He has been so supportive whatever I did, whenever I went. & trusting me in handling $$$ affairs and passed me huge amount of money. He might think that I'm too short and cannot never run faster than him even if I plan to run away with his money, maybe? Inside the joke LOL.

• Love yourself !

Yes, I agreed. "If you don't love yourself, who is going to love you?"
要先学会爱自己，才去爱别人；如果你自己都不爱自己，那你还期待有人比你更爱你自己吗？
& I've been so generous to myself this year which I never did before. But I'm happy with the experiences I've gained. And I know, people was bear in mind why I always have money to travel. Well, I'd say it's depending on how and what path you choose to travel & in fact I'm not a luxury traveler okay? ok. Now you know the reason so no more question next round! - feeling meh.


Thank you for being my guidance all these years! 

:)

X.

让你更快乐的事

时光飞逝　

曾经那个莽撞的少女　 度日如年
或许生活平凡但又是如此幸运的（一直是那么认为的，呵呵！）

后来小小梦想  慢慢去实现

那些年  永远不会再重来
但是这些年  我还算可以  至少都对得起自己

告诉自己 一定要  “挥别过去 奔向明天”

JANUARY:

2年没见的TA 见上一面

聊了一个下午 一匹布般的话题

 大爱那天在适耕庄拍的蛋黄照！

第一次的自驾游

我真的太爱你们了！muackss ···

FEBRUARY: 

因为淹水 所以年考延迟到2月才正式结束！

#twiggybrotherforlife

庆幸的有那么一个TA不计较

不嫌弃我的不完美 一直陪着我！感动感动···

第一次 一起飞！

那天起 就开始了我们的第二、第三个LV

13号房的大姐大 生日啦！爱你

#CNYOOTD 

MARCH: 

 三月睡不醒的节奏

出席一个商业课程 连夜赶了8小时的车下去吉隆坡

为了1小时的讲座（ohmygosh... 疯了疯了！）

不过 更疯狂的事我们也做了，短短的3小时我溜达去谷中城  >_<

一起体验做韩妞的feel... 

(PS: 好像不成功呐？哈哈！）

巧遇中六的童鞋！哈哈哈！

USM 中秋晚宴！

2年了，第一次参加大学的活动，也是半拖半拉的来了！

不过没后悔，表演太精彩了啦！

APRIL:

上课的节奏！

MAY:

劳动节之太平动物园记，wakakaka!

认识一班 AIMST的童鞋们

未来牙医！ *claps*

JUNE：

六月 野餐

七仙女 第一次下凡人间 - BoldLab

好了，平安夜！晚上佳人有约，要去准备。迟点再继续后半年的经典，kbye！

Never stop growing !

Suddenly the thought of become dead forever popped off. 

Thoughtless applies in 3 seconds 2 days ago, slipped and fell in the bathroom after bath. 

I landed in lying position & my back of the body bore and brunt (it hit the buckets) & I remained that lying position for like entire minutes.

I feel a piercing pain and I was wide awake for the whole night 

because of terrible pain.

Everytime, when my friend helps to apply medicine, 

I grin and bear it, weep in silence.

Stay strong clumsy!

快雨时晴

每个人都有情绪，

却不一定能够控制自己的。

有时候恶劣的情绪来袭，

真的会让我们变化，

什么事都会不顺心。

当低潮来袭，

越是抱怨，事情会越做越不顺利。

或许转个念头，

换个角度思考 面对，

再加上一点点儿鼓励，

把低潮击退，

这样事情才能回到正轨，

东西也越来越顺心。

那一夜

或许对我们两者来说是一件极度愤怒的事情，可是 想一想 难免不是件好事？

把它当作 给自己的一个经验，教训自己要谨慎对待每一件事情。

到了 登记处，不给我上机。没有吵、没有闹，只是问了句：“哪里可以购买机票？”

或许因为 他的出现，让我在处事态度稍微有点不一样。就因为一句：“没关系的！”然后转头就拿了新的机票给我。

有些事儿 不是因为大或小，而是你是否在乎

谢谢你 用心去对待，也未曾想要放手…

房客那件事

致：180の屋鄉們

這個月 我聽得最多的一句話

還是那一句 「你要搬嗎？」

如果可以選擇 有誰不想擁有更好的條件

只是 命運往往都在戲人（嘆氣！）

曾經 一度羨慕某某某又收到禮物、某某某又出國、某某某可以買自己喜歡的東西…

但 想一想 那又怎樣？ 

那是因為她們福氣好，你算嚒？（OS：矮、胖、短⋯淚奔～）

一次又一次地吹眠自己，因為告訴自己「你要什麼，就得靠自己爭取！"

（一定要！*必勝信念* 哈哈！）

這些日子 不停地在腦海中提醒自己 沒讓你留宿街頭 你就得感恩了

哪兒有閒暇的時間讓你去想 

啊～ 環境多惡劣、地板多臟、廁所燈壞、水龍頭阻塞、垃圾桶溢滿等等…

就算再好的東西 遇到不會愛惜的人 東西也只是個廢物

所以再好的環境 沒有好好去保護它 地方依舊是會改變

有時候 不是因為 環境的改變 而是人類在變

當人們越來越忙碌 往往就會忽略了一些小細節

比如 垃圾桶滿了 還拼命把垃圾疊上去（OS：啊～是在比賽疊疊樂嗎？）

比如 上了廁所 沒有拉水 （OS：難不成你在自己家也是這樣嗎？）

比如 吃完飯 菜渣沒收拾乾淨 （OS：你是在等晚點肚子餓時吃嗎？）

漸漸地 習慣了 

大家 選擇逃避 不去處理問題

當問題到一髮不可收拾的時候 是大吵大鬧的開始

你指我 我推他 把責任都推得一乾二淨

這就是所謂大學生該有的精神嗎？

試問如果 打從一開始 大家都願意把自己的事情都做好

那需要 爭執嗎？

有些時候 忍氣吞聲 不是因為在害怕

而是 我認為每個人都應該 有一次機會 去改過

但是 機會給了 有去珍惜嗎？

真的 想不通

友族朋友們 真的有那麼難溝通嗎？

為什麼 就是不明白

難不成 是要成立一個像幼兒班似的教學課程

伙子們，感恩吧！也拜託了，別再讓我傷腦經了！

♥️

勇敢一点点！

人生 哲理 有太多的事情没有真正的去理解

有些事情 在你预料范围以外的事情 都会让妳不知所措

打个比方 主任突然来个小测验 或许在你没准备的情况下就无法作答

或许吧？这就是人生。

老实说 一开始我还真的抱着希望

希望 哪天我们会相遇 会回到原点

然而 希望越大，失望越多！（词穷中⋯）怎么写着写着的，眼泪又再涌来了！
（呼呼～）

好了 好了！

这几天 就靠着运动去麻醉自己

不去问 "为什么？"

不去谈"我受伤了！"

不去想"我需要你。"

存不存在 不再是重要的等待

该为自己 安排

他不珍惜 就让他去后悔 ！ 

失去的 就 say goodbye！

小幸运

我个人认为 自己是幸运的
有着两户爱我的家人
有着一个宠我、让着我、支持我的哥哥 要什么有什么 无所不能（突然想起《小叮当》哈哈！）
有着一班疯疯癫癫的闺蜜！突然想高歌范玮琪的《一个像夏天一个像秋天》呵呵！
有着吃货的朋友仔！



这段日子里 让我觉得没有男朋友 也无所谓了
毕竟上一段 感情 结束得不是很愉快！



可是最近 有些事真的 有点让我透不过气来
太多无谓的绯闻 让人觉得恶心 厌倦的
或许只能 觉得无奈！

唯有不断的 告诉自己 “没关系，蒙着耳朵就当作什么都没听着。”
毕竟 嘴巴长在别人那里，别去管他那就没事啦！（呵呵！）



老实说 我不想去解释 只是笑笑带过
因为解释了 能改变什么呢？不解释 又能怎样？
真多想狠狠地戳回去“我搭上你家男人了吗？”（神一般的回复，哈哈！）



原来生活上很多人 只是过客 只是配角 不要太认真！

即使 有很多话 再怎么想说出来
都要吞下去

坚持与固执

我常常被别人说是固执，但是从来都没有人说我坚持，老实说我也没想过这两者的差别。或许对老一辈的看似小朋友做的事情，都会认为是固执；但是我们永远只会觉得自己是在坚持。

毕竟，只要不听别人劝告的人，通常都会莫名的被冠上《固执的帽子》。事实上，事情并没有那么复杂，“坚持的人知道自己在做什么，固执的人则是情绪在左右他做什么”。

要能听人家的劝告，并且把其中的道理纳入到自己的决策，这件事情并不容易。

或许吧，先天就存在着相当强烈的固执成分，不习惯跟人沟通、不习惯人跟人之间复杂的关系。

可是被说穿了，人难免都会有一种“想要自己拗起来干”的冲动，但是一旦做法上发现只要参入了情绪的成分，就算是固执了。

情绪的产生，有很多原因！只能说，我们没办法要求所有人在沟通的过程中保持客观冷静。

其而所见导致沟通之后，大家仍是各做各的没有交集。

我们都会说："自己知道自己在做什么”，但是在别人看来，我们是有点难以控制或者不好沟通的。如果结果是正面的，能得到的嘉奖不多，通常成果也不会被所接受。反之，如果是负面的，那就更不用说了。可是我们明明知道自己在做什么，却为什么没有被人接受，而且还会被说是固执呢？

“俗语说，固执的人，眼睛只会直直看着前面；坚持的人，心在看前面，仍然可以眼观四面。”

当我们越做越窄的时候，当我们发现可以选择的越来越少，或者所有事情都只有单一方向与必然结果的时候，我们就犯了固执的毛病。固执并没有不好，凡是成功的人必然固执，差异应该在于格局的大小，还有重点的定义。
所以当我们顾全大局，集中力量坚持于重点的时候，才有可能把原本狭隘的固执转换为成就的坚持。

缺乏坚持，即使重点定义正确，但收尾没收好，就等于同时追好几只兔子，最后抓不到半只。

看的远的人，往往被别人所误解，所以被别人讲是固执不见得是坏事，被别人误解也不见得不会成功。心里面必须放得开，想清楚自己目前执意走这条路有没有意义？有没有赌气？是否急着想要得到什么利益？有没有先把自己分内该做的事情做好？ 坚持的代价常常都会是寂寞与痛苦，但是如果立意良善，而且对大家都有好处的话，结果仍会是双赢互惠的。

没有人是毅力惊人的铁汉，在面对坚持这件事的时候，难免有些弹性，有点妥协，再加上一点点惰性。心胸要能放得开，有些时候退一步让人与人之间的介面软化，让事情可以顺利进行，才不会为了坚持却反而变成了固执。

September 10 - World Preventing Suicide Day !

I’m going to be sharing something with you guys about me that I was ashamed to tell the world.

I was depressed. I was never a happy girl. I hurt myself countless time. I was never about myself. It always about how other people look at me & what kind of people I should be so others would love me.  I felt interior all the time.

The first time happened when my past relationship went really wrong (I asked for a breakup). We had countless fights every days and nights. At the end he apologized and was begging not to leave. 

Another time happened when he asked for break up for no reason. And by the time where my finals were the next day. All things messed me up those nights. I cried countless time and felt so helpless where I can’t find anyone to talk to (I don’t have friends, I’m self-esteem). I want to go back to hostel that night, but my school was announced in a serious flood. Then I decided to give both of us sometimes to calm down. But few days later (before New Year eve) I found out there’s third party take place. The feeling really killed me in the middle of nowhere.

& That night, my family was announced in a serious financial problem and my parents were into a serious fight. I can’t longer bear with the stress and I was about to take a knife and cut myself. He called me up for times and I didn’t want to pick up the call. He knew when I said it & I mean it. He didn’t want that to happen to me. So he kept on texting me & warned me to pick up his call this time. Then when I picked up, he scolded me & we both were crying in the call, 
& he said “your family loves you, and they never want to see you like this.” Then, I realized I was so stupidly planned to commit suicide because of all the bullshit things.

The third times when I couldn’t cope with my study stress any longer. & I was so eager to score first class so that I could waive that ptptn loan into scholarship.

那时，我处于异常失落的状态。
我的专注被转移，失恋了，然后功课也一塌糊涂。

他乐于新欢，我日渐堕落，自信全失，总觉得“我凭什么？”

& that month I lost 12kg. I don’t know how this happened. But  I hate everything in the world. I’m not blaming everyone but myself… 

Eco World 彩色风车

第一次 EcoWorld的风车展 应该是在柔佛新山

那时 看到朋友们去了 还拍了美美的照片 心里好羡慕 ！

渐渐地 我也开始留意有关EcoWorld的·消息

还真的给我 逮到机会，没想到EcoWorld来到了Semenyih !! *撒花*

于是开始 计划了行程，原本以为一切都准备就绪

但是 临出发前 却出现了一些小状况 估计计划将会泡汤 ！呜呜呜呜 ~

（当天也是风车展的最后一天）*泪奔* 

还好 老天不负有心人，最后还是成功 出发 ！

果然EcoWorld以风车展为噱头，

一踏入 满满的风车围绕着，

转啊转的，让人感觉凉爽 ！

这天，我才发现我严重忽略”破坏力“这个问题了！！

我一直认为新开幕太多人，所以选择迟些时候才来，那就避免人挤人吖～～

却没想到 人潮散了 摆设品也没了，啊～～～

就算有保安一直在巡逻，也有告示牌说明：《别碰风车》、《别坐在摆设品上》等等 ···

但大人小孩根本就没有把这件事放在眼里 去爱护这美丽的环境！！

不时可以清晰听到 保安的哨子吹个不停，还一直要求游人把风车摆放回原位

可是这头才把话说完，另外一边又有人去拔风车了···

为了顾及照片美观度，所以选择随手把风车摆正和插回原位···

那么其他 游人也可以把照片 拍得美美滴... 呵呵~

风车转啊转，心情也自然好了起来 ！

那么多款风车，最受瞩目的应该是这个 大风车 ！

太阳高高挂起，1点的下午，显得有点炎热。

由于太多人潮，于是选择躲在柱子后边避开太阳的曝晒。

等人潮渐渐少去，才去走走拍拍。

羊儿是摆设用途，合照就好嘛 ！呵呵 ~

唯美的风景，一眼瞭望，让人感觉开心滴 ！！

那风情的风车，那简单、朴素又简洁，让人感觉舒服，呵呵 ~

Midnight thoughts.

I know, good thing takes time.

When you're so sad and down,

don't worry sun will rise.

Still believe,

someone is there.

Learn to say good-bye.

No matter how many years you have dedicated to him,

if the time finally part has come,

be strong enough and make the final break.

Neither of you, continue living your own life.

X.

夜里的美好

你

前天晚上熄灯后，大伙儿续位到自己的床上睡觉。
印象中大家已经开始陆续沉睡，只是我却是唯一还在翻来覆去。
在无助的夜里，我似乎已经再也无法掩饰心里的忧伤。这次哭得比前几次还来得严重，鼻涕眼泪一把接着一把。在急需人安慰的情况下，我拖起了身子，往身边的室友蹦去、抱着她、哭泣成泪。在她们的安慰中渐渐得到了舒缓，也开始冷静了下来。据说那是唯一一个夜晚，把她们吵醒，大伙儿拥抱在一块儿，聊了很多的话题。聊得整个人超满足的！

大学时期时的时光总是少些担心，多的都是一去不复返的可贵回忆。那些珍贵没法整理收藏的回忆，只能这样靠着脑袋丫，零碎的拼图回忆连接其它的拼图回忆勾勒出来。可以的话，我还真想看看永远跟她们腻在一块儿！

Journey to the North.

Was scrolling through my library and I though I shall write about the journey I went last week. Again.. I choose Penang island. Well, basically, there's nothing much to explore in Penang. Only food, food, foooooood.. 

You know what, the only thing I love about Penang is cafe shop. I enjoy going to a particular cafe or some random destination and doing my own things. Hahaha..

Ever since, Labor Day on the 1st of May, & I'm going to have roughly about 1 week time; hence I was planning to pack and escape from this hesitate place. :O 

It's been 4 months, & the bus terminal really frightened me, hahaha.. At first, I couldn't recognize the place & I've been wondering around.. "who's the stupid driver dropped me at this place?" *crying inside*

Was so lucky larh.. cause later on I found out the exit to the previous building that mizi usually dropped me and picked me (drop-off area). OS: I wasn't lost on the first day of trip. hahahaa

B'worth Bus Terminal

Hi Penang *wave hand*

The next day, I followed the family to Taiping. & really fun lar. Cause it was my first time to Taiping. *happy facee with jumping up and down*

Gunung Semanggol

 First stop: Taiping Zoo.

 Mr. Monkey said "Hi"

 Mrs. Crocodile laid eggs.

Perhaps, he is emo. :(((

 :D:D

The ladies.

Second stop: Tua Pek Kong Temple Sitiawan

今年五一劳动节与卫塞节刚好有四天连假，那么多天假期如果要我呆在家里肯定如坐针毯，我一定会脚痒，倒不如出外趴趴走。

我有一段时间没北上了，不如趁这假期陪他们一起去走走。

可是，四天连假，那些著名景点肯定人满；为患，人潮恐惧症，不想到人潮太多的地方去，只想来个悠闲的行程，于是乎去了太平。趴趴走，乱乱吃。

So, that's how I ended up my Labor's Day long weekenddd. *cue happy smiley face* 

X.